Deactivated

I feel like I have been deactivated.
On Dec. 16th I put my "eye" phone into a glass of red wine, needless to say it did not work after that and I purchased another one. Yesterday someone stole my recently purchased "Eye" phone and I was livid most of the day, not so much at the theft, although I did curse the soul and wished bad things would happen (shame on me) but at the companies that sell us our minutes which is what this all about. Of course these companies could make it so that no one else could activate your phone but F that, wouldn't be to good on the economy would it? How many customers does ATT have that are using stolen iphones because all you have to do is steal the phone take the sims card out and go to ATT and purchase a new one...bingo, a new customer, you then have a perfectly good "stolen" iphone to use. Where is the honesty of a company? We live in a disposable world where values have been distorted.
I think my attachment to the phone is clearly a part of someone or something brain washing me.

Connect

at this moment i am calling to the god that rules the universe, full of knowledge and wisdom, where art thou? help me to see clearly, the little things of life. Among the fears of the human soul, inspire me. I am reaching to you for inward site through everything I do, I try to fully be myself and sometimes this is tiring. I go mad trying to change myself and then the world, help us all to see!

CLASSIFIED

The Classic Ad
if I were to place a classified this is what it would read:

I am a gemini and come with my twin. I will most likely be older than you because I like younger men , how much younger would depend on old you are. I sometimes have red hair, my eyes are blue, gray or pale green. Sometimes I am bad company, sometimes you won't want to leave. I AM NOT SUITABLE FOR LIVING WITH and prefer you to be on the outskirts of town or living in a really cool place like maybe a nest off the PCH, a warehouse in SF or in the heart of my favorite city, Nola. I love to either be alone or with other people...sometimes. My interest are illusional and come and go with the wind but right now my interest would be to sit in my living room, candles lit,music playing,getting high and interviewing you. So if you came over "now" this would be something you could expect. You: would be whoever i needed you to be at the moment. You would also have these qualities...too busy to eat (almost thin) no hair or curls,waves and dreads. Your eyes would see through mine. Your smell would be one that entices me and lingers. You would always seek awareness in all that you do. Your embrace would embrace me and my illusional world.
If you think you can come close to fulfilling the illusions of my soul please have contact with me...occasionally.
AF
CIW

Amazing

i am so happy we ended up on the same planet...i mean fucking imagine that. On the same planet,same continent,same state,same neighborhood,same street, next door and we question purpose...it is amazing that I know you. there are people in my life that are here for me and I for them. You recognize them because they glow,even radiate. they bring purpose to your life,they heal you, ground you,and take you out of this world. THEY ARE WHERE YOU ARE even when you can't see them.
They will always be. <3

AF

CIW

Another Dream

You are a man
The size of you engulfs me
This is what I remember
And in your presence I want nothing but for you to enter me
Complications exist
Interruptions keep taking you away
I am with you
On top of you
Next to you
With wet hair covering my face from you
You are masculine but surrender to me
Dark hair and eyes.
You wonder what to do with me, for me?
I move into you
I try to read your mind
You cannot escape
You are at my mercy
There is a natural rthym
I let go
You are a hunter with wild game in hand

Fantasy for Sale

i'm in hot water
I HAVE A FANTASY FOR SALE:don't want it any more...had to have it,but now it has to go. you start the bid, it runs until next week. We do not except $$$ in any form...only original ideas to take it's place.

It is when I feel the devil brewing inside of me, so tempting in a corrupt kinda way because you know the outcome is always brutal.

Let off a little steam and cool down.

Marry Me

MARRY ME? never ready, i was not expecting this. is this an agreement? to continue to agree but what if I change my mind. most relationships change, do we commit to the changes along the way? and what if we don't like the changes? i redefine this thing called love, is this attachment or freedom a reason to fly or die to self. it is a path, a time to learn and a time to teach. it is the interacting of two souls.